Well...I went back

To weight watchers that is. I can't do meetings because my schedule won't allow for it, so I signed up for the online program. I was hesitant in doing this since I'm essentially paying for tracking and I could get that for free at myfitnesspal. However...I think I needed a monetary incentive. I need to reminders to weigh in, and the slight pressure of wasting something I've paid for.

A few months ago I dropped Weight Watchers. Didn't feel as though the new plan was working for me. I probably didn't give it much chance. Since my first and second successful forays into WW I kinda did the plan 1/2 or 3/4 when I did do it. This kept me around the 145 range. After I lost my first amount of weight, I lost the commitment I guess. I've been feeling pretty lousy lately. Clothes not fitting the same, extra jiggle in my walk. Today, on a whim, I stepped on the scale........

159 lbs......

I am up almost 15lbs in the last 6 months I guess. Holy crap. That had my literally running to my computer to sign up for WW Online. Half-assed does not cut it. Giving in to stress and eating a chocolate bar doesn't cut it. I cannot do moderation. If I have a little bit, I have it all. I've never learned the moderation rule. Time to exercise some "wantpower" instead of "willpower". Tracking and exercise work...this is not a difficult equation.

I need to follow through on my commitment and get to where I want to go and stop just waiting for it to happen to me and being pissed off and unhappy when it doesn't.

Weigh-in is this Friday. Wish me success (luck has nothing to do with something I have full control over!)

Don't you hate it when...

The gym is freaking busy?? On the day your motivation is riding high and you really want to work out and there is not one machine available...not one! This is my condo gym, not a big corporate one or anything, but still. I think that they could have made our gym bigger...we have two buildings sharing one set of amenities and it only has 3 treadmills, with only 2 of them being operational right now. Gah...I hate it when this happens!! I still have my runner's high from Sunday and I am determined to make it continue till tomorrow.

I am also tracking my food...I'm 115 calories over my daily intake :( Damn lasagana-esque dinner I had. It was really yummy though, and I had veggies with it :) I had anticipated eating only half of the regular serving, but it looked really big on my plate, so I'm thinking that I may have actually measured out closer to the full serving, so I counted the full serving calories. Le sigh to being accountable.

Work is stressful as always...but I am more determined to not let that dictate what I eat. I turned down McDonalds and banana bread today. Repeatedly. That's progress :)

Here's hoping the gym's not busy tomorrow morning!

Did my First 5K!

Today was the Scotiabank Toronto Waterfront Marathon that had the marathon (of course), half marathon, 10K, and 5K. I signed up for the 5K months ago when I was full of dreams and ambitions. I ran maybe, like 3 times in preparation for it. Just last week I had made up my mind to not do it. Consider my $50 registration fee as a donation to the variety of charities that were taking part. I had no motivation to do it. I felt fat and slow, and had this huge mental block that it was going to be super hard and that I wouldn't be able to do it.

I am not going to say it was easy, but nor was it extremely difficult. Did I runt the whole way? Ya, no. I walked a lot of it, but I ran a lot of it too. I made it in 38 minutes. For someone who has never ever run 5K in her life, I figured that was pretty damn good. Plus, it felt good. I enjoyed it, and it's given me the motivation I need to continue. I want to do the Harry Rosen Spring Run Off, and I figure if I work through this winter (hello treadmill), then I can make it a goal to run the whole way and improve my time. I'd love to be at the 30 minute mark (or under!) What I liked is that my Moroccan, who normally does these things in like 20 minutes with no training whatsoever, was only 13 minutes ahead of me. That felt good :)

I've also been toying with going back to Weight Watchers. I looked into meetings again, and at like $60 a month, that just isn't going to work. Online is just basically tracking, so I'm back to My Fitness Pal and my own willpower to set a weigh-in day and stick with it. I don't want to pay over $20 a month just to track. I am going to stick with my own calorie goal and my fitness goals and see how I do.

On a completely different note...does anybody get headaches when they exercise? I find that when I am going hard, I get massive headaches. I still have one from the run today. I used to do some pretty intense Jillian Michaels or Tommy Europe workouts and I'd be dying at the end, not from main body exhaustion (well, there was that too), but my head would be killing me. Enough to see a doctor you think? It's enough to make me scale back, or find excuses to not go as long, which I don't want to do. Just wondering.

Tomorrow is my new start. I am going to track tonight and ignore all the work temptations that are sure to come. Being in education sure does make you squishy! Students are forever bringing you things, having farewell parties, birthdays etc., and it's like a personal insult to them if you don't partake. *sigh* I love my field but, damn!

And in other unrelated news...I had a great week with my mom who was visiting from BC for Thanksgiving. I miss her so much. Hard to be on the other side of the country. We ate too much, toured around Toronto, and made me look forward to Christmas that much more!

I'm off to find more painkillers for this headache (Tylenol sucks!!) Happy Sunday :)